Painting in Acrylic: Life Trajectory

I’ve had this painting and another one finished for a few days. I’ve not been motivated to post them and their names have been elusive. I’ve been full of Light Language, though, and recording myself speaking/singing in LL a lot lately.

The more I request these painting’s names, the more it seems like I’m not suppose to finish the Oracle Deck yet. I only have two more paintings to go to reach my goal. Yet I feel I need to wait. Bide my time. Why? Who knows but I have been drawn away from my canvases and paints to Movie Maker and audio files of Light Language. And what is funny is the minute I consider painting I get an idea to do something else and am distracted away from painting. Ha!

I wanted to share this painting with you, though, because I received the symbol in a vision upon waking and heard, “Life”.

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The symbol was not in color so I just added colors that felt right. And in considering the painting and it’s message I realized it was more than simply “Life” but it was about the path one takes in their life. The up’s and down’s, delays and heartaches, love and despair – all of it. When I saw the symbol it had three lines on the “path” and so I included three lines. But what do they represent? I am hearing they are the path as experienced via the physical body, the path as experienced via the spiritual body and the path as experienced via the collective body (Source).

The painting was originally painted horizontally but I shifted it vertical for ease of use in my oracle deck. When viewed horizontally, the three lines enter from the lower left-hand corner, rise up into the circle and the fall back down toward the lower right. In this view you can see how the three lines merge into one as the line falls down. It reminds me of something I often saw in church when I was growing up. It was a poster called, “Footprints”. You can read the story in the image below:


Similar to the story, we feel the most alone and abandoned during the challenging and difficult periods in our life. However, it is during those times when we are the most protected and loved. When we reach the other side of those troublesome and tiresome times, we may often wonder how we managed to survive when it was obvious that we were destined to fail. The reason we survived those rough times was because the other two aspects of us, aspects that travel with us always, merged with the us, human aspect, and becoming as One. Ultimately buffering us from the worst of the storm and carrying us through.

It always amazes me how these symbols and paintings ultimately reveal a message to me from my guidance. I have just been through a very difficult time during which I heard over and over, “Protection”, and never quite understood why. Now I understand that I was being told I was protected, that I was being carried through a rough time in my life and would survive.

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Where I’m at Now

I know it’s been a while since I’ve updated on the walk-in/soul exchange. I apologize for my silence in this area.

There has been confirmation that the walk-out I experienced was more the integration of a fractured soul aspect. The term “walk-out” was used by me mistakenly because I was unsure of what I was shown. The integration of this soul aspect has been agonizingly difficult and almost all-consuming of my time. If you follow my other blog then you know what I’ve been going through.

Where I’m At Now

The fractured aspect is nearly completely integrated. I am told we are “tying up loose ends” right now. I am not asking for further explanation.

I was approached in dreamtime recently by the walk-in. He/She discussed the soul exchange process with me in more detail. It was made very clear that the exchange has yet to occur. It was explained that the Kundalini would be the conduit for the exchange. While receiving this information the Kundalini was active but muted. However, it was intense enough that I felt it despite it being muted.

I felt the Kundalini energy in my entire mid-section when I awoke. It was swirling and quite heavy compared to what I am use to. This energy has been present on and off for a few weeks, slowly increasing in intensity and becoming less and less muted. I have also had third-eye activity almost non-stop going on four days now. There comes with the energy a sense I cannot describe. It is akin to intuiting major change or alteration in my path, but I cannot say if this is accurate or not.

Considerable progress has been made in preparing for the final exchange. Barriers that were once present are now nonexistent. Acceptance on my part is the norm and most fears related to the process have been addressed.


What it Will Be Like

I assume I have been asking many questions about what to expect of the exchange when it occurs. What will it feel like? Will I know it has happened? What is the process exactly? These are just a few questions that I have had and asked over time.

In one of my dreams early this morning I was interacting with a familiar energy that presented itself in masculine form in my dream. He showed me a large fence had been removed. Fences are barriers to progress. The removal of this one was significant and allows the walk-in full access to this body.

Then the walk-in explained the process of the exchange in more detail. It was compared to a very precise medical surgery. The first part is the evacuation of the human host body by the walk-out (me). With this I saw that the body would be vacant for a time, though not long in human time because when the exchange occurs it will be in a place where time does not exist. I was shown the body will have awareness of this part of the process and how very important it will be to make sure it remains calm and trusting. The walk-in then explained how he will then enter the body via the crown and descend into the heart, expanding to the lower chakras from there. I could feel the energy of the Kundalini when he told me this and understood the Kundalini acted as the conduit for his entrance.

He was very animated and excited when he told me what the end result will be. I can’t remember his exact wording now but his personality shown through as very confident, capable and focused. He stood in front of me (completely naked) and said, “I will at once be here and then there (pointing to me).” He indicated that I would not notice a difference, that all will be as it was (seemingly) but that the individual that is now me will be no more. The feeling here was more profound than his words. I was a bit apprehensive at what I heard but he reassured me that there was nothing to fear.

Though we had this dream discussion in what appeared to be a bedroom, I could sense that it was far from that in “reality”. There was a distinct E.T. element to be felt and my memory here indicates we were aboard a vessel surrounded by very medical-like technology and being assisted by several others who I could not see. In a previous portion of the dream, when I was first approached by the walk-in, I recall saying to him, “You are not human”.

The walk-in assured me that he would continue my “work” without incident but that he would free me (us) of the distractions I have gotten entangled in this lifetime. I received this reassurance with relief. There was a brief discussion about how in the past I had reconsidered the exchange and delayed it. I mentioned that I could not be sure I wouldn’t do that again. He seemed unconcerned and asked me, “Do you want to stay?” My response was almost immediate. I said, “I am ready for a break.” I then asked where I would go while he took over. There was a sense here that I would experience a full reunion and much needed “vacation”. I said, “Can I come back?” I was told that I could but the feeling here was that I could never resume full control but only “visit” and “observe”.

I asked him if he was a soul aspect. He said, “I am family.” The feeling was that “aspect” is not the appropriate word. He is me but he is complete without me.

In this entire exchange it was obvious to me that he is not my Companion Traveler. I noticed this in dreamtime but not enough to cause upset. It was a passing thought only. When I awoke, however, I immediately asked, “Where is my Companion?” I could not feel him nor did he seem even close by. It was like he had vanished. Instead I had this familiar yet distinctly different energy near me – the walk-in. The quality of his energy is hard to describe but familiar in that it is the same energy that accompanied me for an entire week in May, 2015 during a walk-along.

I did not received an answer about where my Companion is but my concern vanished as if an answer was received. The feeling is that we will be reunited as a result of the exchange.


Practice Makes Perfect

Throughout the night last night we were practicing the exchange as well as discussing it in depth. I woke frequently, each time hearing the voice of the walk-in in my mind, his energy very close. I was alarmed initially especially since the practice sessions were so acutely different than anything I have experienced.

The part of the practice that alarmed me was energetically powerful to the point that the Kundalini felt much like lightening bolts of energy. All of this energy accompanied a complete take-over of my will by the walk-in. It was not by force but by agreement and in an attempt to help me understand the final result of the exchange. The message I got not long ago applies – Let thine will be mine. The sensation of this exchange of will was experienced very tangibly. One minute I was in control and the next I was not but another “person” was. This other person took over completely.

When I woke the practice felt very much like I had been invaded and taken over by another Soul. This is what startled me initially but there was instant understanding that it was a good thing and not to be feared despite going against the Ego’s illusion of having full control.

As you can imagine my biggest concern is that I will cease to exist altogether and this person I have become, who I am in this life, will be gone forever. It has been made clear that this is not exactly correct. I have yet to come to any kind of real understanding of how I will be after the exchange. It seems to be a combination of the me I am now and someone entirely different. Like a meshing of the two. I am reminded of the time of the walk-along and how it felt and was experienced. The difference, I am told, is that the walk-in will be in control this time and not me.

As a confirmation of this, I fell into a mini-dream where I was in a car searching for my keys while sitting in the driver’s seat. I turned to my right where the walk-in was sitting and smiling at me. I knew then that he had the keys, not me. I accepted this and stopped looking for the keys.

I must say that in considering all of the above I have found peace of mind despite all the unknowns. It is a relief of sorts to know that I will not have to deal with all the responsibilities and difficult decisions that come with driving (directing) this host body (vehicle). Similar to when on a long road trip, I feel weary and in need of rest, as if I have been driving for 24 hours straight without any sleep. Without someone else to take the wheel I would likely crash and burn.



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LL from the Pleiades – Preparation for Entry into the Unknown

I’ve been playing with Movie Maker. Hope you enjoy my creation. 🙂

A transmission in the Language of Light from the Pleiades constellation. The purpose of this transmission is to prepare for entry into the unknown. The unknown can be anything one has never experienced in this lifetime – a new job/career, marriage, divorce, relocation, a trip or vacation, etc. For many venturing into the unknown is scary. It takes courage and willpower, especially if you are doing it alone. This transmission sends love, encouragement and support to help you as you embark on this journey into the unknown.

There are no symbols to go with this transmission. I got inspiration for a painting instead. I will be posting it as soon as it tells me it’s name.

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Reading for May 30-June 7th: Working With the Ego Child

In May we have been delving deep into our core, exposing more and more of the False Self. This video explains what is behind the intensity of these past weeks of May and discusses ways to cope with and process what comes up for inspection during this time. I also cover the obvious and not-so obvious signs of the Ego Child/False Self and some ways they may present themselves. At the conclusion of the video I use the Osho Zen Tarot deck and my Light Code Oracle Deck to look at what to expect in the next two weeks. The time the reading starts is at around 21:16.


The theme of May has been: What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Ha! No kidding!

No image of the cards I drew because I didn’t use a layout. Here’s an overview of the “obvious” and “not-so obvious” signs of the Ego Child:


Reactive – doesn’t think, just acts out. Stimulus – response. Repetitive.
Illogical – reaction/emotion doesn’t makes sense, doesn’t fit with situation, rises from resistance to a person, place or situation
Uncooperative – You say “Yes”, I say “No” and vice versa. No reason or rhyme to it.
Wants everything NOW
Easily upset and/or hurt

Not-so Obvious

Negative self-talk
Feelings that don’t match reality
Cyclic thinking/repetitive mental circuits
“Hidden” thoughts, always precede emotion/reaction (in above list)
The “Inner Bully” – deceptive, manipulative, plain nasty. Seeks to diminish your power, victimizes, ridicules, preys on your beliefs of unworthiness and/or lack. Very easily overlooked because it blends in and has always been there; seems like you but isn’t.


Essential Oils 

Frankincense – Great for use when clarity is desired. Promotes a feeling of peace and wellness. Assists connection with Higher Self/Source.

Lavender – Promotes calm mind and nerves. Promotes relaxation and sleep.

Patchouli – Provides a grounding and balancing effect on the emotions.

The oil blends I’ve been using the most lately are Console, Peace and Hope.


I’ve been using Rose Quartz and Citrine the most lately. Amethyst and Carnelian are two others I’ve been drawn to. Rose Quartz is great for the heart chakra, Citrine for the solar plexus and Carnelian for the sacral plexus. Amethyst can be used for all the chakras but is great for the crown. I’ve used it mostly for clearing energies and grounding.

For more information on these crystals/stones this is a good, general article.




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Painting in Acrylic: Mastery

Finished a painting in record time two days ago. I had the symbol in mind for days before – maybe even a week. It came in a vision like many of them do but I could not get myself inspired enough to paint it. I felt completely repelled by the very thought of painting it and even when I had two canvases prepared for painting I kept avoiding my paints and brushes. Then one morning the vision of the symbol came to me again with a slight variation to it and I finally felt the urge to paint.


As with most all of my paintings that contain light code, I did not know the message of the painting while I was painting it. This time, when I held up the painting to look it over, I noticed an obvious symbol hiding in plain sight. It is the symbol created by the light language surrounding the main symbol. Can you see it?

No, it’s not an arrowhead. lol Though, I saw that afterward. The first thing I thought when I appraised the entire painting was this background symbol – a perfectly obvious spade. Ha! Where did that come from?

I knew the name of the painting was not Spade. The spade is merely part of the message. But what does a spade traditionally mean?

Here’s what I found and believe me the message couldn’t be more synchronistic for me today.

The spade symbolizes wisdom, acceptance and labor. It is also represents earth in regard to the four elements and is a leaf from the cosmic tree representing life. When combined with clubs, the spade represents fall, winter and the power of the dark. In regards to the tarot, spades represents death, action, air and intelligence. ~Source

Embodied in your card (the ace of spades), which traditionally has been identified as a symbol of death, is also the key to the mystery of life. Unfortunately, for the majority of those who are identified with this card, the mystical meaning of this symbol is lost. If you belong to this category, this card becomes a symbol of labor, and all too often you try to solve all your problems by the sweat of your brow or through questionable schemes. But, as you read these lines, realize that your card is also a symbol of spiritual wisdom, and as the life pattern portrayed in your card is not a particularly easy one, keep this in mind. It may help you cope with and transcend the many challenges which appear to be part of your destiny.

The temptation to indulge in bitter despair may be a real hazard. Remember, from the metaphysician’s viewpoint, despair and inspiration are often considered to be a step apart. Discipline and vision are essential key words toward the overcoming of your problems. In the process, you may also become a source of inspiration to others. ~Source

The Ace of Spades♠ is the most spiritual card in the deck. It is the symbol of ancient mysteries, including Cardology, the sacred science of playing cards, and the card that represents transformation. Found in the Mercury/Neptune position of the Master Life Script, people with this card have the ability to reach spiritual truths more readily than perhaps any other card. Coupled with ancient wisdom is ambition and drive to achieve on a material level as well. Due to this merging of spiritual and mundane, being and doing, this card may experience a conflict between the two as they attempt to achieve balance in their life. ~Source

The part in bold made me laugh because it is part of the message I woke with and wrote about here.

At first I thought I should call the card “Wisdom” or “Action” but neither of those titles felt applicable here even though the spade includes these in its symbolism. The feeling I had upon waking the other morning was acceptance in contrast to resistance. Yet still I hesitated to call the painting “Acceptance.”

So what then do I call it? The initially gave me a very feminine energy, but I didn’t feel that energy while painting it. Interestingly, when I inverted the image the energy felt masculine. I was actually attracted to the painting when it was inverted, too, and almost erased my signature and made it that way permanently. But I didn’t.

Ultimately, today when considering the painting the word “Mastery” came to mind along with the idea that this painting brings with it the energy of “wisdom”, “action” and “acceptance” or better yet, allowance. These are just some of the traits of a true Master.

And as I type this I understand the painting’s purpose. It will reveal to the viewer what in their life they are learning to master or have already mastered. For me it is likely mastery of the Divine Feminine and acceptance of the Divine Masculine within me. Thus I saw/felt both when I examined the painting. What does the painting reveal to you?


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Painting in Acrylic: Love

I actually completed two paintings yesterday but I’m not sure what to name the other one just yet. This one I already had the symbol from a previous drawing. The painting does not match the original drawing, though.


There is actually a variation on the original symbol, too. The bottom part has been added – the bird-looking symbol with diamond in the middle. This part came while I was painting and I didn’t question it.

I’ve been hesitant to paint this symbol since it was originally received. It’s name and message of “Love” is partly why. I have just not been feeling a lot of love lately. I’ve either been too sick, too emotional or too wiped out to really allow space for the love this symbol represents. Perhaps my ability to paint it now indicates that I will soon be feeling love in my heart like I use to. That would be nice.

This symbol represents unconditional love, not human love which is wrought with condition and limitation. I am still learning about unconditional love, but so far it has shown me that it is nothing like human love. The depth of this love is endless. When I feel it I am lost to myself. There is no consideration of individuation. Everything that is me and all that goes along with that (life, considerations, fears, demons, wants, desires, etc) vanishes and is replaced by a Divine Love so vast and expansive there are no words for it. My only desire is to surrender completely to it and remain within its embrace.


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Painting in Acrylic: Inner Child

This painting has an interesting story to go along with it. Last week my husband had the kids painting with my paints and brushes. This was the day I used oil pastels to create three quick drawings. Today, while going through my canvases I found my youngest’s creation. When I saw it I felt I needed to use it for my next painting. And that’s exactly what I did.

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My son had finger painted a pretty marvelous work of art on his own. All I did was enhance some of the colors and add the Light Language. Yes, his painting had the four connected circles. He did that all on his own. I added more color and texture but basically what you see is 75% his creation. So technically this piece should have his signature but he can’t write his name yet.

I knew the moment I saw it that it would be called Inner Child. I also got the symbol straight away. It was as if the painting had been waiting for me all this time hidden in the dark closet. But isn’t digging around in hidden places what the inner child does best? 🙂

This painting is on a 16×20 canvas and when I look at it I can’t take my eyes off of it. I keep seeing things in the patterns and lines. It reminded me instantly of a picture my grandmother had in her living room. It was of a dirt trail through a forest. It left one wondering where it might lead. When I was young I use to stare at it endlessly, dreaming of all the wonderful destinations it led to. That was the kind of child I was, though. A dreamer with a wild imagination.

When I look at this painting I see greenery and flowering vines. It also resembles a fairy tale book cover for some reason. It makes me feel happy – like a child again. And that is exactly what it is suppose to do.

What do you see when you look at this painting?

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Oracle Deck Update and May Reading

Video update and reading using my Light Code Oracle Deck. In the first few minutes I show off the actual paintings that I have completed since my last video. Afterward I do a general reading for the rest of the month of May using my oracle deck. Then I draw three cards specifically for the feminine energy.

If you want to skip to the readings they start at around the 4 minute mark.



This is the spread I couldn’t show on the video. The Change card was the additional card I drew for clarification.

Tentative completion date: the end of the summer. If I end up in Mt. Shasta all summer then the deck will likely not be completed by then.

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Light Language Flow

This morning I was so chock full of energy that my heart was pounding. I needed to express what was going through me but couldn’t figure out how. I had every emotion imaginable coursing through me and my physical body would not calm down. I felt a creative outlet was needed but my paint brushes and paint were upstairs with the rest of my family who obviously felt a similar creative streak. With no other option I got out paper and oil pastels and set about letting out what wanted to come through.



The first to come through came with the frenzied energy. I could not be slow about it and the symbols flooded out of me. I saw the image in my mind and tried my best to replicate it. It was an image of a headstone and very obviously of death. I saw a red sky and a lightening bolt. I saw the gray smoke-like clouds and dreariness. The symbol on the headstone was very rough feeling and angry. The other symbols carried the same energy.



The next drawing came just as quickly but the energy was sympathetic, nurturing and kind. It said, “It’s okay. Breathe and allow. Connect. Flow. Be.” The three circles came first and then the central symbol followed by the one on the left and the one on the right. The central symbol is Source and the two others are masculine (left) and feminine (right).  I know the masculine and feminine should be on opposite sides but that is how it came through. The title given at the end was Communion. Very fitting.



By the last drawing I was calmer, quieter and the energy coming through was less intense and more fluid. It’s suppose to be a flower but I’ve never seen a flower like it. The petals resemble trumpets to me. The symbol came last and shouted to me, “LOVE”.

I don’t know whether or not I will duplicate these in larger, acrylic versions and add them to my oracle deck. They seem to be meant for the deck, though, based upon how they were received and flowed through me. I was told yesterday to expect more symbols but I expected them to come in a dream. Shows me to expect the unexpected I guess.

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Painting in Acrylic: Illumination

I received the symbols of this painting in a vision the other morning. When I finished it I immediately knew the name – Illumination. Usually when I paint a painting it conveys a message to me about something I just experienced, am currently experiencing or have asked a question about. As of yet, I am not sure why this particular message was relayed. Perhaps illumination is forthcoming? That would be nice.


In the vision I received the image was much different than the above painting. The vision was of black symbols on a tan background that resembled a desert. I initially started the painting with a brown color but it did not feel right. I kept wanting to put a splashing of color. So that’s what I did.

The main symbols from my vision are the three pillars central to the painting. They can be seen as torches, towers, beacons, scepters or even wands. As I am writing this they sorta look like microphones, though. This in itself could be a message to “speak up”, which would be very applicable to me at the moment. So much so it makes me smile.

The main colors remind me of the chakras – heart (green), solar plexus (yellow) and throat (blue). However, I also feel they represent the Trinity – Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

Spiritual illumination is a state that occurs after one achieves enlightenment; when the soul has reached a state of eternal bliss in God consciousness. It is known by many names – Nirvana, Samadhi, ecstasy, superconscious realization. In this state one sees the underlying unity of all things and then transcends them. When one who experiences illumination returns to ordinary, waking consciousness, his entire Being is transformed. He sees the world and all experience through a different and now permanent lens – the lens of Divine Spirit.


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