LL from the Pleiades – Preparation for Entry into the Unknown

I’ve been playing with Movie Maker. Hope you enjoy my creation. 🙂

A transmission in the Language of Light from the Pleiades constellation. The purpose of this transmission is to prepare for entry into the unknown. The unknown can be anything one has never experienced in this lifetime – a new job/career, marriage, divorce, relocation, a trip or vacation, etc. For many venturing into the unknown is scary. It takes courage and willpower, especially if you are doing it alone. This transmission sends love, encouragement and support to help you as you embark on this journey into the unknown.

There are no symbols to go with this transmission. I got inspiration for a painting instead. I will be posting it as soon as it tells me it’s name.

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Reading for May 30-June 7th: Working With the Ego Child

In May we have been delving deep into our core, exposing more and more of the False Self. This video explains what is behind the intensity of these past weeks of May and discusses ways to cope with and process what comes up for inspection during this time. I also cover the obvious and not-so obvious signs of the Ego Child/False Self and some ways they may present themselves. At the conclusion of the video I use the Osho Zen Tarot deck and my Light Code Oracle Deck to look at what to expect in the next two weeks. The time the reading starts is at around 21:16.


The theme of May has been: What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Ha! No kidding!

No image of the cards I drew because I didn’t use a layout. Here’s an overview of the “obvious” and “not-so obvious” signs of the Ego Child:


Reactive – doesn’t think, just acts out. Stimulus – response. Repetitive.
Illogical – reaction/emotion doesn’t makes sense, doesn’t fit with situation, rises from resistance to a person, place or situation
Uncooperative – You say “Yes”, I say “No” and vice versa. No reason or rhyme to it.
Wants everything NOW
Easily upset and/or hurt

Not-so Obvious

Negative self-talk
Feelings that don’t match reality
Cyclic thinking/repetitive mental circuits
“Hidden” thoughts, always precede emotion/reaction (in above list)
The “Inner Bully” – deceptive, manipulative, plain nasty. Seeks to diminish your power, victimizes, ridicules, preys on your beliefs of unworthiness and/or lack. Very easily overlooked because it blends in and has always been there; seems like you but isn’t.


Essential Oils 

Frankincense – Great for use when clarity is desired. Promotes a feeling of peace and wellness. Assists connection with Higher Self/Source.

Lavender – Promotes calm mind and nerves. Promotes relaxation and sleep.

Patchouli – Provides a grounding and balancing effect on the emotions.

The oil blends I’ve been using the most lately are Console, Peace and Hope.


I’ve been using Rose Quartz and Citrine the most lately. Amethyst and Carnelian are two others I’ve been drawn to. Rose Quartz is great for the heart chakra, Citrine for the solar plexus and Carnelian for the sacral plexus. Amethyst can be used for all the chakras but is great for the crown. I’ve used it mostly for clearing energies and grounding.

For more information on these crystals/stones this is a good, general article.




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Painting in Acrylic: Mastery

Finished a painting in record time two days ago. I had the symbol in mind for days before – maybe even a week. It came in a vision like many of them do but I could not get myself inspired enough to paint it. I felt completely repelled by the very thought of painting it and even when I had two canvases prepared for painting I kept avoiding my paints and brushes. Then one morning the vision of the symbol came to me again with a slight variation to it and I finally felt the urge to paint.


As with most all of my paintings that contain light code, I did not know the message of the painting while I was painting it. This time, when I held up the painting to look it over, I noticed an obvious symbol hiding in plain sight. It is the symbol created by the light language surrounding the main symbol. Can you see it?

No, it’s not an arrowhead. lol Though, I saw that afterward. The first thing I thought when I appraised the entire painting was this background symbol – a perfectly obvious spade. Ha! Where did that come from?

I knew the name of the painting was not Spade. The spade is merely part of the message. But what does a spade traditionally mean?

Here’s what I found and believe me the message couldn’t be more synchronistic for me today.

The spade symbolizes wisdom, acceptance and labor. It is also represents earth in regard to the four elements and is a leaf from the cosmic tree representing life. When combined with clubs, the spade represents fall, winter and the power of the dark. In regards to the tarot, spades represents death, action, air and intelligence. ~Source

Embodied in your card (the ace of spades), which traditionally has been identified as a symbol of death, is also the key to the mystery of life. Unfortunately, for the majority of those who are identified with this card, the mystical meaning of this symbol is lost. If you belong to this category, this card becomes a symbol of labor, and all too often you try to solve all your problems by the sweat of your brow or through questionable schemes. But, as you read these lines, realize that your card is also a symbol of spiritual wisdom, and as the life pattern portrayed in your card is not a particularly easy one, keep this in mind. It may help you cope with and transcend the many challenges which appear to be part of your destiny.

The temptation to indulge in bitter despair may be a real hazard. Remember, from the metaphysician’s viewpoint, despair and inspiration are often considered to be a step apart. Discipline and vision are essential key words toward the overcoming of your problems. In the process, you may also become a source of inspiration to others. ~Source

The Ace of Spadesâ™  is the most spiritual card in the deck. It is the symbol of ancient mysteries, including Cardology, the sacred science of playing cards, and the card that represents transformation. Found in the Mercury/Neptune position of the Master Life Script, people with this card have the ability to reach spiritual truths more readily than perhaps any other card. Coupled with ancient wisdom is ambition and drive to achieve on a material level as well. Due to this merging of spiritual and mundane, being and doing, this card may experience a conflict between the two as they attempt to achieve balance in their life. ~Source

The part in bold made me laugh because it is part of the message I woke with and wrote about here.

At first I thought I should call the card “Wisdom” or “Action” but neither of those titles felt applicable here even though the spade includes these in its symbolism. The feeling I had upon waking the other morning was acceptance in contrast to resistance. Yet still I hesitated to call the painting “Acceptance.”

So what then do I call it? The initially gave me a very feminine energy, but I didn’t feel that energy while painting it. Interestingly, when I inverted the image the energy felt masculine. I was actually attracted to the painting when it was inverted, too, and almost erased my signature and made it that way permanently. But I didn’t.

Ultimately, today when considering the painting the word “Mastery” came to mind along with the idea that this painting brings with it the energy of “wisdom”, “action” and “acceptance” or better yet, allowance. These are just some of the traits of a true Master.

And as I type this I understand the painting’s purpose. It will reveal to the viewer what in their life they are learning to master or have already mastered. For me it is likely mastery of the Divine Feminine and acceptance of the Divine Masculine within me. Thus I saw/felt both when I examined the painting. What does the painting reveal to you?


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Painting in Acrylic: Love

I actually completed two paintings yesterday but I’m not sure what to name the other one just yet. This one I already had the symbol from a previous drawing. The painting does not match the original drawing, though.


There is actually a variation on the original symbol, too. The bottom part has been added – the bird-looking symbol with diamond in the middle. This part came while I was painting and I didn’t question it.

I’ve been hesitant to paint this symbol since it was originally received. It’s name and message of “Love” is partly why. I have just not been feeling a lot of love lately. I’ve either been too sick, too emotional or too wiped out to really allow space for the love this symbol represents. Perhaps my ability to paint it now indicates that I will soon be feeling love in my heart like I use to. That would be nice.

This symbol represents unconditional love, not human love which is wrought with condition and limitation. I am still learning about unconditional love, but so far it has shown me that it is nothing like human love. The depth of this love is endless. When I feel it I am lost to myself. There is no consideration of individuation. Everything that is me and all that goes along with that (life, considerations, fears, demons, wants, desires, etc) vanishes and is replaced by a Divine Love so vast and expansive there are no words for it. My only desire is to surrender completely to it and remain within its embrace.


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Painting in Acrylic: Inner Child

This painting has an interesting story to go along with it. Last week my husband had the kids painting with my paints and brushes. This was the day I used oil pastels to create three quick drawings. Today, while going through my canvases I found my youngest’s creation. When I saw it I felt I needed to use it for my next painting. And that’s exactly what I did.

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My son had finger painted a pretty marvelous work of art on his own. All I did was enhance some of the colors and add the Light Language. Yes, his painting had the four connected circles. He did that all on his own. I added more color and texture but basically what you see is 75% his creation. So technically this piece should have his signature but he can’t write his name yet.

I knew the moment I saw it that it would be called Inner Child. I also got the symbol straight away. It was as if the painting had been waiting for me all this time hidden in the dark closet. But isn’t digging around in hidden places what the inner child does best? 🙂

This painting is on a 16×20 canvas and when I look at it I can’t take my eyes off of it. I keep seeing things in the patterns and lines. It reminded me instantly of a picture my grandmother had in her living room. It was of a dirt trail through a forest. It left one wondering where it might lead. When I was young I use to stare at it endlessly, dreaming of all the wonderful destinations it led to. That was the kind of child I was, though. A dreamer with a wild imagination.

When I look at this painting I see greenery and flowering vines. It also resembles a fairy tale book cover for some reason. It makes me feel happy – like a child again. And that is exactly what it is suppose to do.

What do you see when you look at this painting?

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Oracle Deck Update and May Reading

Video update and reading using my Light Code Oracle Deck. In the first few minutes I show off the actual paintings that I have completed since my last video. Afterward I do a general reading for the rest of the month of May using my oracle deck. Then I draw three cards specifically for the feminine energy.

If you want to skip to the readings they start at around the 4 minute mark.



This is the spread I couldn’t show on the video. The Change card was the additional card I drew for clarification.

Tentative completion date: the end of the summer. If I end up in Mt. Shasta all summer then the deck will likely not be completed by then.

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Light Language Flow

This morning I was so chock full of energy that my heart was pounding. I needed to express what was going through me but couldn’t figure out how. I had every emotion imaginable coursing through me and my physical body would not calm down. I felt a creative outlet was needed but my paint brushes and paint were upstairs with the rest of my family who obviously felt a similar creative streak. With no other option I got out paper and oil pastels and set about letting out what wanted to come through.



The first to come through came with the frenzied energy. I could not be slow about it and the symbols flooded out of me. I saw the image in my mind and tried my best to replicate it. It was an image of a headstone and very obviously of death. I saw a red sky and a lightening bolt. I saw the gray smoke-like clouds and dreariness. The symbol on the headstone was very rough feeling and angry. The other symbols carried the same energy.



The next drawing came just as quickly but the energy was sympathetic, nurturing and kind. It said, “It’s okay. Breathe and allow. Connect. Flow. Be.” The three circles came first and then the central symbol followed by the one on the left and the one on the right. The central symbol is Source and the two others are masculine (left) and feminine (right).  I know the masculine and feminine should be on opposite sides but that is how it came through. The title given at the end was Communion. Very fitting.



By the last drawing I was calmer, quieter and the energy coming through was less intense and more fluid. It’s suppose to be a flower but I’ve never seen a flower like it. The petals resemble trumpets to me. The symbol came last and shouted to me, “LOVE”.

I don’t know whether or not I will duplicate these in larger, acrylic versions and add them to my oracle deck. They seem to be meant for the deck, though, based upon how they were received and flowed through me. I was told yesterday to expect more symbols but I expected them to come in a dream. Shows me to expect the unexpected I guess.

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Painting in Acrylic: Illumination

I received the symbols of this painting in a vision the other morning. When I finished it I immediately knew the name – Illumination. Usually when I paint a painting it conveys a message to me about something I just experienced, am currently experiencing or have asked a question about. As of yet, I am not sure why this particular message was relayed. Perhaps illumination is forthcoming? That would be nice.


In the vision I received the image was much different than the above painting. The vision was of black symbols on a tan background that resembled a desert. I initially started the painting with a brown color but it did not feel right. I kept wanting to put a splashing of color. So that’s what I did.

The main symbols from my vision are the three pillars central to the painting. They can be seen as torches, towers, beacons, scepters or even wands. As I am writing this they sorta look like microphones, though. This in itself could be a message to “speak up”, which would be very applicable to me at the moment. So much so it makes me smile.

The main colors remind me of the chakras – heart (green), solar plexus (yellow) and throat (blue). However, I also feel they represent the Trinity – Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

Spiritual illumination is a state that occurs after one achieves enlightenment; when the soul has reached a state of eternal bliss in God consciousness. It is known by many names – Nirvana, Samadhi, ecstasy, superconscious realization. In this state one sees the underlying unity of all things and then transcends them. When one who experiences illumination returns to ordinary, waking consciousness, his entire Being is transformed. He sees the world and all experience through a different and now permanent lens – the lens of Divine Spirit.


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Painting in Acrylic: Movement

Completed this painting yesterday. I didn’t feel very motivated while painting it, though. It’s hard to find motivation to do much of anything when I have a cold. Regardless, I received the symbol for this painting the day prior to becoming sick and so had already begun to paint it when I was hit with a headache and sore throat. Thankfully, the creative energy that came through me seemed to diminish the uncomfortable symptoms.


Like with my other paintings, the meaning of this symbols took a while to come to me. The symbol itself came to me after waking up one morning with a message in my mind about ascension/descension. What I saw in my mind were two triangles, one pointing down and the other pointing up. The two triangles had overlapped, creating a star. With this came the message that the physical and spiritual were coming into balance. What I recall now of this message is mostly lost except for the visuals I received.

Not long after I received the symbol which I believe represents the physical side of the Merkaba. The group of lines above it indicate a readiness for the spiritual aspect to descend and join with the physical where they will meet in the middle and be in balance.

Why then did I receive the name “Movement” for this symbol? For some reason the definition that comes to mind for the word “movement” is the one related to musical compositions. I am also reminded of being asked by my Companion, “Will you dance with me?” So movement in this sense is a combining of two or more elements to create a complete picture or composition. It is indicative of being ready to transition from one stage to another.

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Life as a Class: Examples of On-the-Job Training

I continue to have instances of “on-the-job training” throughout my waking (and sleeping) life experience. The main difference between now and before the walk-out is my complete acceptance of the information and mentorship coming from my Companion. This mentorship comes in so many ways and is so varied that any one example won’t do the others justice. Each “class” comes in the moment, which translates into a teachable moment.

Example 1

An example that comes to mind most recently is from last night. Backstory – I have been working on the challenge that is my marriage for some time. In the Knowing transferred to me by my Companion, I recognize much of our marital issues stem from some very deep-seated patterns that I carry. Most are connected to fear of men and thus a resistance to them and lack of trust in them. I can totally understand this based upon the memories I have recovered from previous lives and my current one. However, the understanding does not replace the actual patterned responses. I need help doing that.

So, last night my husband comes in to bed and lays next to me, snuggling close. I immediately ridge up. I am watching a video on my laptop and shut it off and ask him to give me ten minutes because I want to watch it alone. He doesn’t move, which is normal. I sit there, uncomfortable, still ridged up, when a thought comes to me, “Why can’t you watch the video with him there?” and another, “Relax. He’s not going to hurt you.” I respond immediately and some of my resistance melts away. I turn on the video and finish watching it, allowing my husband to lay there and trace the contours of my arms with his fingers. He does this out of love and a wanting to be close but I immediately connect it to him wanting to have sex and thus I ridge up without a second thought. I hear, “Why not enjoy it?” I listen and close my eyes, allowing myself to enjoy the all-over-body tingles resulting from his light touch.

I listened to the video and notice I feel warm. I am being encouraged to allow my energy to mix with my husband’s. I don’t do this much, haven’t in a while. I don’t know why really.

When the video ends my husband doesn’t leave. I usually ask him to leave multiple times without success. This pattern has repeated countless times to the point of my feeling fearful and him angry. This time I question him being there and then stop there. I don’t really think much at all, which is unusual. Instead, I stand there for a moment and choose to lay down next to him, my back to him. I’m still being encouraged to relax and allow, so I am doing that and it is proving easier and easier. He continues to trace my arms with his fingertips and I relax into it.

After a while, I sit up on the edge of the bed. I knew I needed to decide what I was going to do. Was I going to create an upset by refusing intimacy of any kind with him? Or was I going to let myself enjoy his company and accept his love, no matter what form it comes in? I really didn’t think much on it. I chose the latter right away. In considering my choice now, I know the reason I chose it was that I was choosing love and a positive outcome over a negative one. I had lived the other choice enough to know the outcome would leave us both feeling bad. I didn’t want that.

Again I heard, “Relax. He won’t hurt you.” I briefly wondered if I really thought he would hurt me. If so, where did I get that idea from?

The more I allowed myself to be loved, the easier it got. The result was more closeness than I have allowed myself in a very long time.

Later, as I was mulling over the lesson, my Companion said to me, “It is human to want to be touched. Everyone desires it. Even you.” I recognized my block was the association of sex with touch, specifically male touch. I knew men had this association, too, but for me it was linked to very violent acts against me as both a woman and a small child. For me to be touched by a man triggers both karmic and cellular memories. Touch defined here is not casual touch, but intimate touch such as a lingering hug, snuggling, spooning, sensual touch, or just touch for longer than is normal.

Somehow I have to get passed the reactionary response I have to being touched by a man, allow it and accept it as normal and natural.


Example 2

Another lesson I am learning is “listening” to the intent (energy) of another rather than their words. Recently I spontaneously invited my SIL to come workout with me at the gym. My husband told me days before that she had mentioned being interested in working out with me but felt I was in too good of shape, comparing herself to me and saying she was “fat” many times. I let it sit for a while and then out of the blue mentioned I would love to work out with her. She immediately voiced her insecurities and I told her I had no such considerations about her. She then said she was going to the gym right then and asked me to go along. I said yes, she got me a pass to her gym, and off we went.

While in the gym I listened to her and noticed I said a lot less than I would normally. My thoughts were less self-centered and more other-centered. Her energy said, “I want your help but I don’t know how to ask you for it.” What she said was mixed as well. Sometimes she seemed to want my help and other times not so much. I didn’t let either affect me. I did my thing, offered help if she wanted it, and took no insult to her rejection of it. Eventually she did say, “Okay, show me” and her energy indicated she was ready.

Overall, we had a great workout and I left feeling calm and centered, though a bit tired. I invited her to workout more with me but she has yet to communicate anything. So I sent her some links and left it at that.

Example 3

Another interesting thing that is happening is I am having dreams where I am meeting up with online friends, mostly males. In the dreams I sense their curiosity and that they are looking for something. It causes me concern and I ask my Companion about it. He always reassures me it is normal and not to worry and he is always right. In considering it further, I realize this connection is purposeful and that the time has come for me to expand and accept connections for what they are. These connections are part of the plan for the new Earth and nothing to be feared. This plan involves a full telepathic society, one where all thoughts of one are shared by all. Nothing can be hidden and nothing will be. This will allow for more transparency. ~ Transparency and the Shift

For the time being I am unable to fully process this Knowing of what others’ intentions are as my tendency is reactionary. This is the usual method of the self (Ego). I am learning now to observe the reaction of the self but not succumb to it or, better yet, believe it and allow it to morph into some other false feeling – fear, anger, etc. The self would view the “curiosity” of a friend via the astral as an intention for more than a friendship which may further expand into another major heart connection and/or something else. This in turn causes an instant panic and fear. But the Self views it only as the curiosity it is. The desire to want to understand a connection that is there. It understands such connections are always going to be there if the individuals involved are ready to acknowledge them. The Self understands it has the ability to be at cause rather than the effect and if such a curiosity does expand to something else, the Self recognizes its ability to handle it with love and compassion.

The fact is, I am moving into full heart-centeredness and in this shift others will be automatically drawn to me. I am not saying this to be egocentric. If anything the opposite. It is what it is. I am noticing it in my waking life as well as in my dreams.

For example, last Wednesday I was at the orthodontist with my daughter, we were there way past closing while my daughter got her braces. All the employees were there and I began to talk to them openly about my sister and her TLC drama. Before long, all of them were talking and sharing. In the end, I was being held there by the orthodontist himself as he shared a very personal story with me. He went as far as to reach out and put his hand on my shoulder and gently hold me there. Then he reassured me, “You are not alone.” The energy from him was inviting and I felt from him an acceptance of me as his equal when before he had always felt distant. Sadly, I withdrew from it because I felt from him that “curiosity” and shrunk from it. A work in progress.

Afterward, we went to the grocery store and it seemed everyone was talking to me, extending their energy toward me and just being generally inviting. It was like that day I had a sign on me that said, “Talk to me. Get close to me. Love me.” lol


Example 4

Another lesson that is on-going is fully accepting my role as mother and caretaker to my family, home and children. I recall one day as I was cleaning off the table for the umpteenth time thinking briefly, “This is never going to end.” But the normal irritation with it and wish for a change to something more exciting was absent. Instead I thought, “This is my job.” I suddenly viewed cleaning up after my children, doing housework, making dinner, doing homework, reading, playing, etc – all of it was my job. There was not resistance to it. In fact, there was a sort of joy in it which previously was difficult to contact. All this came in an instant and my mind went directly back to the business of being a mother.

All-in-all this is my viewpoint all the time now. I wish you could hear the old me’s thoughts versus the new me. Like night and day. The old me would carry around this resentment for the present moment. She would resist routine and very seldom found joy in the little things. For example, happy baby making a mess was only “a mess” I had to clean up. Now it is “happy baby” and the mess is just “my job” – an afterthought.

I’m so much happier because of it and so grateful for this change which seems to be coming from me without me having to work at it. Miraculous.

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