I haven’t painted in months but yesterday, New Year’s Eve, I felt the need to paint again. I needed to express my experiences in 2017 and art was the best way to do it.
There was emotion more than once while painting this. As is usual, the painting shifted and changed as I painted and as the emotions presented themselves. The primary emotion was grief and loss but there was also self-pity. It seemed like the painting was telling the story of a very pitiful girl who just couldn’t let go. I was sad for her/me.
The woman in the painting is obviously me. She is looking forward, to the future. Behind her is an outflow of experience, emotion and Self. Her hair is dark because despite her emergence from the darkness she is still blue, weary and travel worn. Yet the journey was not for nothing. The symbol in gold resembles a trumpet and from the horn blooms a red flower with three blooms. Near the mouthpiece you can see what appear to be hooks; anchors symbolizing expectation. They are floating upward now that I have released them. The triangle reminds me of the rudder of a ship and considering my ship dreams throughout 2017 it makes sense that it would be there.
When I look at the painting I am sad. The painting seems dark and lonely to me. It feels like a sad farewell, not a happy one. But I will not miss 2017. Not one bit.
Light Code Oracle
Since I have been “away” I have not done any work on the deck. I wrote a few card explanations but lost interest. It felt like the deck had done what it came to me to do and it’s work was done. There was no more need for it and so I put it aside.
With the above painting I briefly wondered if perhaps there are still more cards to come. Maybe? Maybe not. However, I have been giving 2018 tarot forecasts using the deck and so have had to write out the card meanings in order to do them. I have about half the card meanings written down now. I am finding the cards work very well for readings and am enjoying using them.
Where does that leave me? Well, I cannot promise I will have the booklet done anytime soon but it is slowly creating itself as I use the cards. Maybe at some point I will put together a booklet. Until then the cards are still available at The Game Crafter. I will happily provide explanations/meanings for the cards upon request for those who have purchased the deck. Thus far there are explanations for both upright and reversed versions of approximately 20 cards.
If you are interested in a 2018 forecast the fee is $10 per month, so $120 for the year and $60 for half the year or any amount of months that you would like. The forecast includes one or more cards drawn for each month using a combination of the Osho Zen Tarot deck and my Light Code Oracle deck. The forecast focus can be on specific areas – career, family, romance – or just a general reading. Please contact me if you would like to schedule a 2018 forecast.