At this time I have concluded that the “walk-in”-“soul exchange” path was misunderstood by myself. The “walk-in” message I received in 2015 was merely a heads up for the one week period of time in late May when another aspect walked along with me (the existing soul). There was never to be a permanent soul exchange and never did a soul exchange/walk-in occur prior to 2015.
The past few days have revealed much to me. It is now obvious to me that my strong desire to exit life (avoidance) resulted in the “deluded belief” that at some point another entire soul aspect would take over this body allowing me to escape the mundane and all the responsibilities that go along with it.
I have determined that at this time I need outside help to assist me in locating and eradicating that which led to all these deluded beliefs. In a sense, I feel that my previous diagnosis as Bipolar I with psychotic tendencies may have in fact been accurate all those years ago. Does that mean I’m mentally unstable? Some would say so while others would not. I don’t believe all that I have experienced is false or the result of some mental disorder; however, I do believe mental disorders can arise from spiritually profound experiences such as what I have had (Kundalini first and foremost). It is a question of, “Which came first, the chicken or the egg?” All I know is that the two are linked and considering my family history of schizophrenia, mental illness is a real possibility.
As my own personal “treatment” I have to stop buying into the walk-in/soul exchange phenomenon. It is harmful to me to continue to associate with others with similar beliefs as it only exacerbates my tendencies to believe the unbelievable and feeds my own “grandiose” delusions. Thus, for the time being I will not be posting in this blog anymore. Whether I will ever post again, I don’t know.
My path now is one of healing and reintegration back into the mainstream. I will be returning to my previous path, the one I was on before 2014.