The persistence of my guides continues. Another early morning for me. Yay! 😦
I had communication around 6pm from my guides that was a simple, “We will see you soon.” This occurred while I was taking a brief meditation break. While meditating my entire crown lit up with energy and then the energy slowly moved down into my throat. I felt energy coursing down into my esophagus. It was the strangest feeling! Then the energy moved into my shoulders and back, down into my heart, solar plexus, hips, legs. The only place I didn’t feel it was my root chakra. The energy was warm and tingly and very relaxing.
Then as suddenly as it started it just stopped. The only energy remaining was in my crown.
Wide awake and unable to remember anything about my dreams, my entire head, neck, shoulders, upper back was buzzing with a warm energy. I had a feeling of total disappointment. A song was in my mind, specifically, “You’ve been lonely too long.” A very strong, unfamiliar presence was to my left. I was too tired to ask who he was but he was saying, “We are helping you. You need to prepare.” Too tired to care what they had to say, I fell back to sleep.
I awoke suddenly, as if startled awake. For a moment I did not know who I was or where I was, completely disoriented. Then a surge of memories came flooding into my mind. They were dreams, lots of dreams! Like an entire night of dreams. And they came in order from most recent to least.
I remembered that before waking I had been learning to read. Yeah, I know, weird. I had a tutor or teacher and was practicing sounding out words one letter at a time like a beginner reader would do. The particular word was – Hiclot. Specifically, the word was separated and I saw the letters very clearly. That was the word. I wrote it down just to make sure I didn’t forget it. I think maybe we were practicing nonsense words. lol
That particular memory gave me a shock, though. Not because of what I was doing but because of why.
Then the dreams came piling one on top of the other. I won’t go into them all as there are at least six very detailed dreams. The main one that was causing me to be a bit anxious was the following:
I was in a highway tunnel. There had been an accident and cars were all stopped and people wandering around. I was walking through the scene but had not come from a car. It was like I was just placed there. I saw a woman sitting next to a trailer. In it was a body covered by a white sheet. She was telling the officer thank you and then sat down next to the body of her loved one. I went up to her and gave my condolences but was overwhelmed because this body was one of many, many dead bodies I had seen. It really upset me. Why was I seeing so many dead bodies?
That was when the man under the sheet sat up. He was not dead but had been. He came back to life. He was very tall (over 6ft), blonde and completely naked. I remember when I saw him that I looked up at him and he looked angelic to me. Perfect. I gave him a hug but his left shoulder hurt him and when I pulled back I saw it was dislocated.
Now, in and of itself this dream was not upsetting. It was just another dream. But considering all of my dreams had a similar theme – someone dying and coming back to life or someone experiencing a complete personality shift – it was clear that my guidance was trying to get across the same message they have been sending for a while now. Also, the person from the above dream was in multiple dreams, sometimes a man and other times a woman, sometimes me and sometimes not me.
All of the above came into my mind in about 1 minute. It was like a flash of memory and recognition, literally. Then I heard the guide to my left say, “Crisis tends to push us forward.” Huh?
I hate cryptic messages like that! And I am mentally, emotionally and physically exhausted from this nightly onslaught.
Earlier this morning I was nearing panic and thought that for sure if I wrote about my experiences everyone would think I was being visited by Team Dark (TD) or some evil entities trying to play with my mind and shift my vibration. But now, upon reflection, I recognize that is not true. Not at all.
I was not being told things that are negative at all. I just took them that way. The guide was the one who told me in an OBE, ‘sometimes you want cereal‘. I think his job is to get my attention, which he does, but also to help me stay centered in my heart. Meaning I need to stop overreacting. lol
So if I remain objective, the messages he brings are just information to use as I choose. He and my Team want to prepare me for what is to come. From what I can tell, it will be like a death and rebirth cycle in many ways. My fear of the unknown throws that all out of proportion. I needn’t do that to myself.
Then there are the messages I want to hear that throw me off balance, too. This is because I begin to think they are just a result of my Ego because in the past when I heard what I wanted to hear that was the case. This is also a sign that I have shifted into my head. Yet when I shift into my heart I get the same information. Jeb says, “You will get what you want. You always get what you want.” hahaha He’s right.
So What is to Come?
I was asked a question: What are your most memorable moments from this life? I spent a good part of the time from 4:30-6:30 discussing this with Jeb. He told me that this along with everything else (regrets especially) will be something I am presented with during the “event”. I recognized it as a life review, and he confirmed. I also knew this was part of the inflow into the crown chakra that I have been shown. It amounts to every lifetime I have ever lived all at once. So literally a “thousand deaths” (probably more). I recognized also that each guide in this lifetime is me in another lifetime. So I will effectively become all of my Team when this “event” occurs. The me who comes out the other end, well, who knows what she will be like. Definitely changed and probably a bit disoriented.
And I can’t help but think that all of this might be a test to see if I get caught up in expectations of what is to come. I choose not to do that. If this “event” happens, great. If it doesn’t, great. I am beyond caring at this point. Bring it on.